For Others. In the name of Love.

Do you know the sound of a Blue Jay? Its chirps?

I do, and when I hear it, I think of my twin brother Jay and that his name was changed from Jack to Jay because we were adopted into a family that had a Jack, and we couldn’t have that; two Jacks.

And so, from time to time, I wonder about the impact, of that, on Jay.

From time to time I look back.

And, from time to time, i wonder what I still carry from the past, and I wonder what life would be like if i were fully free from the weight and pain that is a part of me.

i am thankful for my past despite the tragedies. I am grateful for all of the people that have been in my life, and for the love I’ve been given.

And, here we are, with this moment, now, and the opportunity to be and to become.

I choose to believe that I am here for others, in the name of Love.

May this help you with your journey. Love,

Passing Through

I’m passing through.

I’m on my way.

I don’t get stuck

Throughout the day.

On a path, within the road. No avoiding getting old.

Certain things I need to do. Ensuring that my dreams come true.

Clearer now, the way to be. I’ve learned to learn the way to see…

Things and stuff, they come and go. See past those things and you will grow… the way you should.

Hooked

Sometimes it’s the bait.

Sometimes it’s the Hook.

Sometimes you have no choice,

But to turn the page of the Book.

Where you at with this?

Have you Evolved?

Or, are you that same kid from High School,

That thinks he has this Solved?

Where do you think you are going?

You gotta slow Down.

Forget what you’ve learned,

And just look Around.

And, then just keep looking,

And get outta your Head.

You’ll begin to see things differently,

Despite what you’ve Read.

Honey for Lori.

She’s content… but she’s a little bit anxious. Happy, but a little unsettled. And…. she’s ready to play…. but she’s happy to lay… around… in the sun… or the shade. She loves the breeze.

She just wants to be… with what’s good.

Like a hike…. taking the path of joy… by choice… though the trails of pain are there. The trails of doubt, and with the fear and unknown.

Gotta leave it alone. Gotta live with the music. The good song…. where we’ve left behind and alone the weight and shame. Where that game has faded away.

She didn’t ask to be made to walk with pain. She’d have never done what she did. So many times, when once is too many, for anyone. Just a kid. So unbelievable sad…. to be hidden from love the way she was. Ohhhhhhh Lori. Lori. Lori Lori. My sweet sister. I’m so sorry for everything. We didn’t ask for this, and now you’re gone forever.

I wanna sit here in the shade with you, and the breeze, and just be with you… again.

Language Lesson

We’ve all got things to Say… and it all has its place within the layers of love.

We just dont know the language yet. We just can’t hear the truth.

Coyote spins the wheel. Red fox knows the deal. Big bear calls the shots, And, round and round we go.

Hard as we stare… Loud as we say it… can’t quite make it right.

Not a fight we’ll ever win. So close and yet so far.

Until we know our dreams. It’s not the way it seems. Got lost within my trip, that I may find myself.

In The Moment

We’ve all heard the saying, Be in the moment.

Many of us have a grasp of what that means. To me, I consider my understanding of Buhdism of the concept of enlightenment; that there is this place or way to exist that is filled with peace and joy and an empty, open mind where one is connected with life in an ideal way.

However, being in the moment means something different to everyone. Can you be in the moment if you don’t know / understand the moment? Is perspective reality or is reality reality?

Of course, the answer is, reality is reality, and perspective gets in the way of reality.

Today, I’m thinking of this in terms of people getting in their own way. Do you know people that exaggerate and / or that don’t speak the truth? Do you know people that lack context in their rationalizations? People that have their own story about what’s happening, and you can’t help but ask, why is this person seeing things this way?

As I think of various examples I find common threads. There’s typically negativity. The perspective is often that, someone else is doing something I don’t like. Finger pointing, and this can completely cloud the person’s awareness.

So, awareness is a big part of knowing or of being in the moment. And, everyone will tell you that they think they’re self aware. So, does it come down to perspective? And, what about the idea of an empty mind? Can you be in the moment if you’re holding on to something? Holding something against someone(s)? Carrying weight from the past into the opportunity in front of you?

No. One can’t. I’ve experienced that evolved state of consciousness. The golden light. The empty, open mind. A state of being where I was living a more evolved existence.

It was temporary, but I was shown just how far We are from our potential. I was shown that heaven and hell exist on earth, and that it’s a matter of the mind; that our minds are getting in the way of a better way of living.

We’ve all got a story. Rather, stories. A past, and stories to ourselves about our circumstances; what’s happening to us right now, who we are, and what we’re doing; what our place is.

The truth is, we were never taught the right way to be. Our parents and theirs never understood the true nature of life. So, what is this life to you? What is your purpose? What are you trying to prove? For who? Why?

Do you believe in love? Do you believe in the idea of peace on earth? Are there certain questions like these that you ignore day in and day out? Is it your job to make a difference? Does it start with self?

As always, I hope my writing reaches someone(s), and that it has a positive affect. Food for thought if nothing else. My suggestion for you is to spend more time in meditation. No. Not necessarily on the floor, Indian style. But, with yourself, in a quiet place, where you can practice Not Thinking. Just be. With yourself and this beautiful life you have, just the way it is.

On My Way Back to You.

Kinder thoughts
As you come and go.
From my mind.
All the time.
Wishing for that better space;
Open.
Fine. No problem, as the past fades away
In its place.

Connected, right, the light comes in,
Like the wind,
For a time.

Just want it to stay.
For always.
For us.

Just want you to stay
With me.

Why did you have to go
So soon?

Come back to me.

I’m on my way
To you.