Or Without

Think about it. Think about it.

if you without it, you ain’t with it.

What’s the reason? Now you get it.

For a second, then it’s lost.

Where’s it at? What’s the cost?

Give em more. Watchem take it.

Don’t blame me. I didn’t make it.

Make him? No sir.

Never saw it.

All a blur.

Now. See. You and me.

He was. I am.

Not me. Uncle Sam,

Be trippin. I’m just slippin, down a path, from way back.

Long ago, from where I came. Insane, the brain.

Fishing for Answers

it could be the bait,

or the way that you Reel.

I’m happy to listen.

How do you Feel?

It may be the season,

Or perhaps where-you-Cast.

One thing’s for sure…

This will not Last.

Not today nor tomorrow.

Yesterday’s Gone.

Do you still want to talk,

Or is it time to move On?

Embrace all the changes.

Learn as you Go.

Enjoy every moment;

The highs and the Low.

Honey for Lori.

She’s content… but she’s a little bit anxious. Happy, but a little unsettled. And…. she’s ready to play…. but she’s happy to lay… around… in the sun… or the shade. She loves the breeze.

She just wants to be… with what’s good.

Like a hike…. taking the path of joy… by choice… though the trails of pain are there. The trails of doubt, and with the fear and unknown.

Gotta leave it alone. Gotta live with the music. The good song…. where we’ve left behind and alone the weight and shame. Where that game has faded away.

She didn’t ask to be made to walk with pain. She’d have never done what she did. So many times, when once is too many, for anyone. Just a kid. So unbelievable sad…. to be hidden from love the way she was. Ohhhhhhh Lori. Lori. Lori Lori. My sweet sister. I’m so sorry for everything. We didn’t ask for this, and now you’re gone forever.

I wanna sit here in the shade with you, and the breeze, and just be with you… again.

Living the Dream

I cherish the time, in-between-things.

The space without, all the bull-shit life brings.

Just space to breath, and the time to unwind;

A Stepping-Back. A need to remind….. myself…. that things are ok. That I can handle the stuff that’s coming my way.

I just wish I had more time, away from Selling; non-alignment with others, pushing and defending what I believe in, and dealing with people.

If I’m being honest with myself, I believe my happy place is a day to day, where I’m not having to answer to others. Rather, I’m producing art, what I want, how I want, and when I want.

Perhaps it’s doable. That my work would be appreciated and bought, such that I’d be more than a starving artist.

It begs the question… is the starving artist happier, or equally tortured?

I suppose the logical path is to begin the dream on the side.

How many of us will never get there?

Positive Attitude

I’ve noticed an uptick of negative thinking lately. Mine. Defensiveness too; going over and over a situation where I felt I was wronged. I knew it wouldn’t change anything, but I needed to confirm for myself, and repeat to myself, that I was in the right.

And, it seems like things have snowballed; a, when it rains it pours, thing. I’ve found myself more judgemental lately, and with less patience with others.

With awareness of my circumstances, and my thinking and behavior, I can only reason that letting go, and intentionally filling my brain with positive thoughts, is the way to go with this.

Mantras, to start the day off right, and to come back to and to use throughout the day.

I am thankful for this life, for my health, for my family and friends.

I am thankful for my home and for my employent.

I appreciate others, and understand that we’re all different and that we’re all experiencing different situations. Be compassionate, non judgemental, patient, and kind to others.

I choose to see the good in others and to see others in a positive light.

I will do my best to be my best today, and I will focus on my goals and the things that I can control. I will not be distracted from staying the course.