Do I want it?

If what I want is to win,
Then I need to commit.
I believe that I can,
But-that my current game’s shit.

I put myself in position,
To see where I stand.
And i got what i asked for;
Brendan’s Hand.

I put up a fight.
And I learned what I need.
I now know the steps;
The path to succeed.

And, it starts with health;
My physical side.
My body was failing.
My brain had lied.

I believed in my story
That i was ready.
But, as it turns out,
B’s far more steady.

It’ll take some time,
But I’ll try again.
I now know where I stand,
And i Believe I can win.

It may not happen next time.
But, I do have the game.
Not to see this through
Would be a shame.

So I’m putting it out there.
You may call me crazy.
And, if I never beat B,
It’s cause I’m just too damn lazy.

That I won’t do what it takes
To-raise my-level of play;
Embracing the challenge,
Or walkkng away.